I've spent a lifetime remodeling myself. I've made mistakes, survived failures and had big wins but after every adventure, I always ended up at the same point. Remodeling continuously is exhausting. It was like the quest for the holy grail - I wasn't sure I was woman enough or had enough years to resolve the problem.
When I found a solution, it has been like angels singing every morning! I've built a common sense approach to help other resilient women reclaim their power and rewrite the next chapter of their life. It is my mission to help YOU shorten your journey so YOU can live your best life.
Old programming is holding your future hostage.
If you are ready to let go and grab the brass ring, then let's do this thing!!
THIS IS MY STORY...
I’ve been looking for the HAPPINESS grail my whole life. While I'd crossed off some cool “bucket list” items, I kept ending up at the same dead end. I felt flawed. I was the problem.
Then I met a man who could help me fulfill a dream of owning a ranch. There were red flags but I glazed over those. I loved and embraced the lifestyle, uncovering hidden talents that couldn’t be used in any other profession. Surely, it was meant to be!
We built a ranch from the ground up, bought more property and ran constantly. As responsibilities grew so did his belittling. I worked harder and took on more, hoping he would realize how valuable I was.
The belittling took an emotional toll and the work took a physical toll until one day I lost my mind. We were working cattle and I did something “wrong”. He started in and the volcano erupted. I screamed at the top of my lungs and it just kept spewing. Momentarily, I stepped out of my body and looked back at myself.
Who was this woman?
I didn’t like her. I didn’t want to be her. It was uncomfortable to be in her body.
I dropped back into my body, shut my mouth and rode off to the house. At the moment, I knew I had to find a solution or buried anger would kill me.
In order to survive, I shrank and at one point, believed that a strong wind would blow me off the face of the earth. It was a scary, lonely, painful place. I couldn’t fully accept how much rage and hate was buried just below the surface. I felt shame and embarrassment that two degrees in psychology and years of personal development but I couldn’t repair myself. I was still traveling the same dysfunctional path.
I started another self remodel - hoping to find my purpose through non-profits jobs and a house remodel. As I scraped ceilings, I realized I was scraping off my old beliefs and ideas. I couldn't keep patching what wasn't working. I had to take out rotten floor boards and fix a shaky foundation.
I tried meditation, visualization, declarations, forgiveness work, reiki, spiritual healers. I delved into my past, released anger, hurt and fear. I was saner but I still felt that rock of hurt buried deep within. When a mentor asked, "you know you have a hurt that needs to be healed?" My assignment to tell the story, no matter how silly it seemed, that defined my life.
I tried out for the boys basketball team in junior high. I believed my dad when he said I could do anything a boy could do. Title IX was in the news and Gloria Steinem was my hero. The biggest reason was a friend dared me to try out.
The practices started at 6 am every morning for a week. The boys elbowed me and shoved me to the ground. I had new bruises every night. The coaches were oblivious; the girls basketball coach showed up to frown and shake her head. The girls team distanced themselves. Friends disappeared, the school shunned me, my mother never said a word and the general attitude was I had committed a felony. The last day of practice, my dad said “you know, you don’t have to do this".
When I saw all the neural connections that I had made and how those webs had played out in my life, I was shocked. I heard my dad say, “if you do this, you deserve to be beat up". I took this directive to heart and allowed others to bully me. I took on ridiculous challenges to reclaim my value by proving myself to the world and especially men. Faulty wiring and past hurt caused problems with groups and family and friends. My teenage programming had determined the results of my adult life.
Anger was buried under humiliation, shame, fear, confusion. I couldn’t articulate in junior high that I lost my power but I felt squashed and shrank to a smaller person in order to survive - my survival technique through my adult life. When I was shoved, ANGER would surface.
It cost so much time to realize the adult me could choose to let go of the past. I had looked outside for my grail when it was within me the whole time. I needed to claim it. I can reclaim, release, reconcile, readjust and rewrite my next chapter. YOU CAN TOO!!
It's time to channel your anger for YOUR greater good!
Helping YOU learn to reconcile your past and claim your power so you LOVE your life is my mission! You will believe you can change when we work together!
Schedule a free consultation today to learn more about working with me.
These are my underlying assumptions in working with you:
⬤ No one is broken.
⬤ NO dumpster diving into every hurt in your life-there are one or two stories where you lost your power.
⬤ Action creates transformation.
⬤ Until you resolve your past, you are destined to repeat it.
⬤ Time does not heal all wounds, it just buries them deeper.
⬤ You are the problem and you are the SOLUTION!
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